Just wondering if I could still stretch my overworked brain to come up with a blogpost. its the exam period once again, with the usual meditative studying and extensive periods of keeping to myself, back to the reclusive geek. Figured that I'm much inclined to establishing an online presence than to actually be out to interact.
This is probably the last time I'll be studying and to be honest I'm more than thankful for this time to finally arrive. Couldnt wait a sec longer before I can flash my big wide smile on the day of last paper. the job search can wait, interviews can wait, the clearing of meetup and catchup debts can wait. Nothing compares to the sole magical moment that belongs to me and perhaps other thinkalikes. I dont wish to miss studying, though I know theres a high chance I will someday sometime. Its like a cyclic thing, one moment you wish it was over, the next moment you wish it wasn't. Its a constant battle between convincing yourself or just simply to soak in the emotions and feel regret from not being truly appreciative. Dilemmas make life interesting.
The four years passed in what seems like light years from moon to the sun. everything was happening too fast, good or bad they just pass. there are a few minor regrets here and there like why didnt I join outdoor activities club or something like that but nothing is big enough to tip the scale. I had a well balanced college education, we had fun we studied and that was all I could ever wish for and I got it:) School and friends are definitely what I would miss. In fact I miss them now already.
All the romantic feelings about school and exams...but right now I'mmmm suffffering like nucking futs. its anti climax to end like this but still reality is the bursting of a bubble and sinking of titantic. ANTI CLIMAX
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