Zoe Jane

I wish November pass faster. A birthday away from home i cannot imagine, just letting it pass like any other day is the best comfort(: Even so, I still love Novembers! Aside from all the mugging and exams and stuffs in school, I love this month cos its so near to Dec...its near end but not yet the end hahah. Dont have to do anything, just let it pass and wish its over faster! I will just take some money off my pay and buy some happy dresses and tops as celebration(: indept 21!

Listening to Radio Dept gives you this larger than life feeling after..I just love listening to them on plain old lazy sunday afternoons. Doing nth at home, not going out and just staring at the blank screen. Called mummy just now, still missed her as much. Shess so cuuute!(:

was reading this blog entry from titch;
A quote from the post:

Sometimes, I feel like I see so many pretty, perfectly arranged entries about lovely lives and adorable apartments and wonderful jobs and nothing ever seems to be wrong. I also know that I’m guilty of writing, at times, as if everything in my life is glorious, even when—especially when—it is not.

I can totally feel what Amy is talking about. Personally I love reading blogs and finding out what they are doing, who they are and such but I feel discouraged. Discouraged for leading sucha less than perfect life and big differences and all..wells I'm not too sure how the rest may be feeling but I'm done with struggling! Esteem problems plagueing me once every now and then..I might as well tell them all here:

1.I’m afraid I will never truly find myself beautiful, inside or out.
2.I get bored with myself, with life…and change my outside to make up for it. (cutting short hair)
3.I'm quite needy sometimes. I would rush back home whenever I'm upset.
4.I cry alot.
5.I don't dare to do confrontations.
6.I often wonder if there is something wrong with me. iq or eq both
7. Thank goodness I only have 6. haha

yup a handful of them. so glad at least im open and real about them.

can i just disappear like chings did on her birthday. thats damn cool haha