Studying the whole day makes me think a lot. Its like this trans-meditative state where you keep thinking, constantly finding things to think about while burying yourself in notes. Like why are we studying things which are absolutely of no relevance to 90% of our lives and for many years to come. Ironically, we are not forced...yet we are kinda pushed into doing it so we are kinda forced. I don't believe having a good head start in life means you will end up well or whatever. Its just like track isnt it? Does the runner who take the first position always end up first? no..you can never tell.
So whats the point? I never believed that a degree reflects your intelligence. Instead, it only goes to show how determined you are thats it. Nothing more to it..how determined you are to finish memorising the whole Jacobi derivation, how determined you are to study late till the am to get a better grade. Perhaps that explains why Steve Jobs never respects Masters/ Degree holders, not a bit. He only makes use of their technical expertise yeah thats what is trully smart to me. I am determined, thats why I am stuck in this blardy system. Determination is good, thats why I intend to keep it with me in whatever I do in the future.
I never believe in calculating too much either. I never liked risk aversive people, cos to me they are just lying to themselves by creating a safe haven and hiding in it most of the time. I take calculated risks, of cos I don't crash my head against the wall but I enjoy the feeling when you choose to go with the unknown and finding it quite pleasant and theres no regrets in your choice. I love that feeling(:
I just hope all things go well for me regardless of whatever choices I make.
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