It took me five months to post this entry! omgg..sucha longgg time wonder how i made it hehe
I feel so sad to start off this blog post on a sad note but I'm feeling kinda bothered by problems lately. Relationship problems mainly..which leads me to saying: PMS is really a bitch. Can't really say that pms is all the cause of the row, but its really a biggg part of it. ok I said really too many times already.
anyway, I'm that kinda person who resorts to desperate changes when something upsetting or traumatic happens to me..any change whether good or bad will do. i just can't stand myself being stuck in that situation for long...so i usually cant think rationally. which is bad you see...more often than not, i would ask for a timeout..or a break from everything altogether. The reason why I'm blogging about it now is because I find myself all upset and everything now, even after the phone call. Can I say, this is the worse and suckiest feeling/situation I'm under to date. Never have I in 21 years felt like that...while I risk sounding like a complete spoilt brat, but really..in the face of relationship problems..I don't seem to have anything in control.
Honestly I've contemplated a break...but then again I would ask myself if I really want it..I cry all the time, which is like normal cos I have zero control over my tear ducts. This whole thing is becoming so upsetting I just can't bear to think of it now..I need to talk I really need to but your busy and stuffs which only worsens the whole situation.
If you really get to read this (which I doubt so cos my blog has basically rot to guts for five months), I wont delete this no matter what happens in the future. Cos this blog entry will serve either as a reminder or just a distant memory.
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